LEAH AND RACHEL

(An excerpt from Moving Beyond Rejection) Copyright by Pro Type

LEAH AND RACHEL

He left me for the one who was before

He left me because she was offering him more

I gave him my heart

I gave him my life

Yet Leah and I had continuous strife

Jacob, my love, come and lay with me

My soul is crying out  for you

Can’t you hear me

I am alone in my tent waiting for you

I am sad, I feel empty, I feel so blue

Laughter I can hear from the tent next door

I have tried so hard, yet I am unable to give

You more

God have You forgotten to open up my womb

Leah has my lover, my husband and a

Happy home

I can’t bear the pain of this emptiness that

I now feel

Jacob is in Leah’s tent although I know his

Love for me is real

He has left me once again to go to Leah’s tent

Happily Jacob leaves me, as if he was sent

Empty and alone, my heart aches within

My jealousy is so strong, it is an unwanted sin

Rejection has attacked my heart

My mind and my soul

My anger toward Jacob, I can no longer withhold

“Give me children or else I  die!”

Words I said to Jacob because it was my soul’s cry

Years lived in sorrow because Jacob was deceived

Then God finally remembered me

And Joseph I conceived.

How Is Your Marriage?

Conform—to take the form of; to adapt.  What is marriage according to the world?  It is something legal.  It is a man and a woman as a couple.  What is marriage according to the world? It is two individuals in a legal contract.  We are not to adopt this mindset.  Marriage is not to lose its spiritual significance and conform to the legalities of this world. Be not conformed to this world but be transformed... 

Transformed—to be changed in form.  Have you not read…….?  Have you not read that they are no longer two but one flesh?  They have been transformed and this transformation was executed by Elohim, God.  They  are no longer a couple  but an individual.  And Adam said- “This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh. She shall be called woman because she was taken out of man” - Genesis 2:23.

We got married but most of us did not change the way we think.  We continued to see ourselves as individuals yet married.  This mindset is pleasing to Satan but totally  unpleasant unto Elohim, God.  What is the good and  acceptable and perfect will of God?  And there shall no longer be two, but one flesh, one body, one soul—unity.  What is the device or weapon that Satan uses? Individualism in marriage.  I do me first, because once I get myself straight then I can care for my spouse.  Oh! This sounds so good, so pleasing, so self gratifying and satisfying to your flesh and your mind, but it is not Elohim God’s good and perfect and acceptable will.

When you and I begin to think like this we have been  deceived.  Our minds have not been renewed and our marriages are experiencing deterioration because we still live our lives as being separate from our spouses.  This is brokenness in our marriage covenants because there is no separation in marriage, save and except for the purpose of healing, and for reconciliation as stated in 1 Corinthians 7:10, 11 - “Now to the married I command, yet not I but the Lord: A wife is not to depart from her husband.  But if she does depart, let her remain unmarried or be reconciled to her husband.  And the husband is not to divorce his wife.”

(An excerpt from Broken But Not Destroyed - Copyright by Pro Type)

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WOMAN an excerpt from Definition By Character

Most females will not dare themselves to discover who they are by their characteristics.  Once most women are able to care and provide for themselves, all else becomes irrelevant. Deception.  All else is relevant.  As a woman, are you willing to allow a man to plant his love, his ideas, his knowledge and all that he is into your womb for germination?  Say what?  Where are you going with that deep question?  Right at you! Fix your face! Remember what the word 'womb' means.  It is a place for germination. 

It was a curse in the days of the bible for a woman not to be able to bear children. Women then were of the complete understanding that bearing children defined their title and failure to do so made them  not a good wife to their husbands.  The primary purpose of the man marrying is first and foremost for the woman to bear his children.  “Blessed is the man who has his cradle full.”   Wow! Nowadays women want to go to the pet shop with their husbands and pick out a Chihuahua dog and name him Butch.  Happy little family with the empty cradle. 

The world has become so independent of the Word of God. People are redefining themselves by their own efforts.  Family is no longer a husband, wife and children.  Most families  now  consist of  the married  man who left his wife and children, and is now taking care of another man's household.  Better yet, as I stated earlier, children are being replaced with pets.  Women no longer want to bear children.  Women no longer want to submit to leadership outside their work environment.  Women want to be treated equally with men in every facet of life.  Women deserve equal respect, but let us be real, it is not the plan of God to be equal in leadership.  If you see yourself as one being equal to a man, you have already  defied the order of God.  When God created the first woman he made her subject to the man and dependent upon him for provisions, guidance and instructions. Man was and still is and ever shall be the head of a woman (If only some of them knew how to be it!).

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KEEP YOUR STRENGTH, PROTECT YOUR HEART

 Judges 16:18 – When Delilah saw that he had told her all his heart, she went and called for the lords of the Philistines, saying, “Come up once more, for he has told me all his heart.”

You should never be more comfortable sharing your heart with any woman other than your wife. This is a clear indication that something is seriously wrong in your marriage.  Your heart belongs to Elohim, God and to your wife.  It is treason for you to share your heart with any other woman, and this includes your mother.  The contents of your heart are the desires of your soul. Once shared with the wrong person, they can destroy you; because you have given them the ability to weaken you. God did not give you and a stranger dominion, He gave you and your wife dominion in the earth.

It is an insult to share a bed with a woman whom you cannot trust.  Learn to trust your wife, she is your helpmate and no other woman should be permitted to serve you in such capacity. Your wife is bone of your bones and flesh of your flesh and likewise she deserves to be entrusted with your heart. You weaken yourself when you share your heart with any other than Almighty God and your wife.  With these two, you have dominion in the earth and without them you are weak and vulnerable.

Prayer

            Heavenly Father I am now learning how to properly protect my heart and my marriage.  So often I have been deceived into believing that I can better communicate with other people than my wife.  Forgive me for denying my wife the opportunity to support me and to be my helpmate.  I repent of dishonoring my wife and I ask You to restore a healthy communication in my  marriage.  Deliver me from becoming a prey to others by sharing my heart. Let Your Spirit guide me toward my helper, my wife, my spouse and the one whom You have given unto me to share all of my heart.  Amen. 

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The Heart and Mind of the Victim

Jesus did not only pray for Elohim, God to forgive His offenders but further realized and also sincerely stated the reason why He wanted God to acquit them of their wrong doings.  Jesus said, “they do not know what they've done.”  He didn't focus on His pain, neither did Jesus focus on the shame He suffered, their ridicule and mockery of Him, the grave injustice towards Him or the abandonment by His disciples.  He did not go into detail with the events of His sufferings.  It is this mind and this heart we must endeavor to possess as victims.  This is the reason why whenever we find ourselves in the victim position, not to permit the root of bitterness to enter our hearts.  This evil passion of bitterness, of anger, of revenge will prevent us from possessing the heart and mind of Christ. “In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus” Philippians 2:5 - New International Version (NIV). Therefore our challenge and our goal as victims will be to forgive our offenders and also pray unto our heavenly Father to likewise forgive them.  This is a forgiving heart. 

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Vain Pursuits

We were created to incorporate Elohim in everything that we do, every thought, every imagination and every desire. Our lives begin when we plug into God, the source of life. The fulfillment which we so yearn to experience is not found in the things that we can obtain, the goals we can accomplish or the relationships we can establish.   Our emptiness, our voids, that nothingness that lingers is removed or filled when we seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness.  (Excerpt from VAIN - The Foundation of Emptiness) Copyright by Pro Type. 

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LEARNING TO OVERCOME - from A Forgiving Heart

Why haven't we overcome as yet?  We have failed to overcome because we refuse to release our offenders and ourselves from our negative experiences.  Overcoming our pain and shame is as challenging as it is for you and I to have a forgiving heart. We must realize that we don't need to have it all together.  It is alright for us to make mistakes.  It is alright for us to experience hurt every now and then, it is nothing more than a manifestation of the level of emotions connected.  It is alright to experience some shame, this manifests where we've placed our securities.  I want you to know that there is a much better thing for us to do.  The best thing that you and I can do is tear down those idols of ourselves which we've erected and become humble.  He is Almighty God, yet He chose to live His life as the Son of man.  He existed in glory, yet our Lord decided to dwell in a place of poverty and sin.  He is Lord of all lords and  yet Jesus lived His life as a man of instructions.  Jesus made Himself of no reputation and He learnt obedience by the things He suffered. Hebrews 5:8 - "Though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered" (NKJV).  This is what you and I must do. We must learn obedience by the things we suffer.  This obedience includes the act of forgiveness. 

We must discontinue our selfish acts of holding our offenders hostage and thereafter become obedient to that which is required of us by our heavenly Father.  God's desire is for you and I to forgive.  We need to practice forgiveness and it is very important that we possess forgiving hearts.  The pain and the shame will be as effective as we allow it to be. Can we honestly forgive people and ourselves?  We must decide how long we want to carry our emotional baggage because the key to overcoming our pain and shame is having a forgiving heart.  We must free ourselves and also our offenders.  This is true victory and the proper way of moving forward. 

Excerpt from A Forgiving Heart. All Rights Reserved.  Copyright by Pro Type. Book available on Amazon ISBN 9781494808754. Author: Tanya E. Munroe.